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Making a New Perspective

     On Monday I called up a very dear friend of mine and we chatted about some fond memories we had about life and fun times we had together. Of course conversation went as it usually does to current concerns and frustrations, and how sometimes in this life we are living we do not know how to approach living it. Sometimes my mind is blown because things lie before me that I desire and want so much in my life but have no idea how to approach embracing them in my life. Well what we both realized was that we both felt the same lack of understanding on how to invite into our lives the things that we want to most
     I started to see a light turn on though, I have things in my life already that I want, I just don't know how to take them as my own. Its not a lack of what I want available in my life, its a lack of me taking, or taking opportunities. I saw that it was myself, not lack of opportunity holding me back. So therefore for things to change in my life and in my friends life we realize we are what needs to change. The way we see life and the way we live life is what needs to change in order for our lives to change.
     A long time ago we had done a silly talent for a talent show that was a makeover. Now years later we are doing a new makeover but instead of the focus being changing the way the world sees us, this time it about the way we see ourselves and the way we see ourselves in this world.
     My goal right now is eight weeks, every week with a theme of something that will change the way I behold this world. This week my theme is no longer seeing myself as awkward, as silly as it sounds I have always felt like this awkward human being constantly tripping over myself, making a fool out of myself. This simply is not true! I am beautiful, sometimes completely unexpected in the way I do things, but that makes me unique and intriguing not strange or awkward.  We all have our moments of tripping over ourselves, being unsure of how to respond to something and insecure in how to proceed, but welcome to the human existence, we all have those problems. We all have insecurities, our challenge now is to not let those define us, or limit us.
     We need to let go of some of our false reflections we have of ourselves in order to live a free life. So I am now rejected the plan that Satan has for me, I do not wish to live in fear or doubt of who I am. I wish to live free to believe in my power and the amazing love of my redeemer.
    Let go of your doubts in yourself whatever they may be, and join in this quest to see ourselves in a beautiful light. One of majesty, and potential for greater things, we are wonderfully made, what is keeping us back from wonderfully living. Let that restriction whatever it may be go! Let go and live!

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