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In the Search

     What is in the search? What do we find in a search that we do not find in a search engine? The moments of stumbling across a truth you have needed for sometime yet have not known where to look. When you look something up you may find exactly what you wanted, but in not having to search you may never find what you needed. What do you gain in searching? Patience, truth, knowledge and excitement for finding more. In searching for truth in life you find an exuberance, an excitement for life that you may never find if you are just handed the truth; you may never see the beauty that can be found in the journey.

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