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Starting somewhere

    I miss writing. I miss the way it sooths my soul, the way it empowers me to look at the details of my life in a positive light. There has been so much going on in my life lately that writing basically got buried in a corner forgotten.
     Some of it might be due to the fact that havent felt very positively about my life lately. But I miss the feeling of being in-love with life, I miss feeling alive. Somewhere inside of myself I know that if I want to feel those things again I need to find the courage to pull out the things I love and dust them off. At first it might not be very pretty, like a painter that is out of practice there are bound to be some duds before there are masterpieces.
    Here I am making it full circle with a goal that is the very reason I started this blog, I want to start writing everyday. Writing things that I hope can help and inspire others and maybe in the writings of my soul I will be able to refind myself.
    Its interesting where life takes you and how you find yourself in places you never dreamed of being. Somewhere in the losses and confusion of life we have to find beauty in it even when we can't find joy. I used to do this with ease, now it feels daunting. I have to start somewhere though. So heres to a new year, new experiances and new insight.
    Lets see where it takes us.

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  1. McKall Erin RuellMarch 13, 2019 at 9:39 AM

    I love this Carrie! I have been feeling this way about writing myself lately! I love reading everything you write! You have a gift for it! I know its hard to find time to write, I have been having a hard time with that too, but I hope in all the craziness you do find the time because I love reading it!

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