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Casting Shadows

I noted an interesting phenomenon this morning, I woke up at 4:30 who knows why. I felt restless and couldn't go back to sleep. As I lay on my bed I watched lights and shadows dance across my walls. I've noticed this happen many times over the year and a half that I've slept in this particular room.
This morning I was curious so I sat up to see what was causing it. A lonely car was traveling the road between Ephraim and Manti as it traveled over the curves of the road the up and down hills of the road created a dancing light effect on my bedroom wall. The car was far enough away that I couldn't even see two distinct headlights, it looked small and insignificant yet it still lit up my darkened room.
If a car 5 miles away can cast my shadow on my bedroom wall imagine what our individual light and darkness can do to those we think are out of our reach.
When a car is driving down the highway the driver is not concerned about whether or not they are giving enough light for someone miles away, their biggest concern is seeing the road out in front of them.
In our lives, if we are using light and wisdom to choose our path it is inevitable that others will be touched and affected by our choices, not because we were focused on changing them or touching them, it will happen simply because we have a light in dark times. Don't be afraid to shine your light, even more importantly don't be afraid that someone else will see your light.
Do you doubt yourself? do you question if it matters? The truth is you may never know the people that your light is affecting but that does not make your light less valid or less needed.

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