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If I Stay

We all reach moments when we have given it our all, we have done everything we know how to do, and have worked until we feel worn out. Sometimes when we get to that point we feel a great sense of accomplishment being able to see just how far we have come, sometimes we feel a loss at what to do next. It's like we have done all we know how to do and we simply don't know what comes next.
I feel somewhat like I have hit that point like I have given my best and now I am not exactly sure what is left and where to go with it. 
A little while back I went to the movies with a friend to see a new movie that had been released. It had made it big as a book and so far had gotten great reviews as a movie. I went to the theater to see that movie, but strangely it was not the film that left the biggest impact. Although it was moving and very meaningful, what caught my attention more was a two minute preview that had people crying before the featured movie had even started. This clip is part of the inspiration to this particular Blog post; If I Stay.
In every persons life I there is a point where you must make a call, is the life you are living right now what you need to stay and fight for, or is it time to let it go and move on. There is something about a clean slate that is refreshing, but there is something about the past that is comfortable and warm.
It is up to us do we want to stay, or do we want to go? Most of the time we don't know.
That's when you just have to take a leap, if I stay I am surrounded by people I love who love me, but I am also am tucked comfortably in my comfort zone and that's no place to spend the rest of your life. If you choose to stay somewhere you need to find a purpose and a need, something to consecrate yourself to. Some people you meet in life seem to already have a sense of being exactly who they are meant to be, and it's not so much that they have already arrived, but that they are constantly arriving. They find some way of daily continuing further into who and where they want to be.
I can't stay in one place, I need growth and when run out of depth where you are sometimes you just need to close your eyes, let yourself feel for a moment then take a leap into the great unknown. I don't always know who I am, or who I supposed to be, but I'm constantly searching and becoming. I've realized if I stay I need a reason, a depth and a purpose. And right now there's not. So I am taking a leap, my eyes are closed, I'm feeling my way and I am leaping.

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