365 days for you

I noted an interesting phenomenon this morning, I woke up at 4:30 who knows why. I felt restless and couldn't go back to sleep. As I lay on my bed I watched lights and shadows dance across my walls. I've noticed this happen many times over the year and a half that I've slept in this particular room. This morning I was curious so I sat up to see what was causing it. A lonely car was traveling the road between Ephraim and Manti as it traveled over the curves of the road the up and down hills of the road created a dancing light effect on my bedroom wall. The car was far enough away that I couldn't even see two distinct headlights, it looked small and insignificant yet it still lit up my darkened room. If a car 5 miles away can cast my shadow on my bedroom wall imagine what our individual light and darkness can do to those we think are out of our reach. When a car is driving down the highway the driver is not concerned about whether or not they are giving enough light fo

Have you ever been driving down the road and inside you feel unsettled? As you drive you begin to realize that you don't even like the music you are listening to, you really don't even like the radio station that you are on. I do this all the time! It's like a weird silent tolerance to things we don't have to put up with simply because it's convenient. I've realized lately that I waste a lot of energy on things I don't care about as well as things that I would rather go without. Back to the radio example, the other day as I drove to work I switched between channels not liking any of the songs that were playing after a lengthy battle of going back and forth between my top 4 saved stations I finally turned the radio off. The remainder of my commute was reflective and I was able to think clearer. Why didn't I do this from the beginning? Probably because I have trained my brain to seek out distraction. Our culture has trained most of us to seek out distrac