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Courage

Yeah I know I have been way bad at this recently. I guess that goes to show how human I am, just know that when I don't write it is because I put my life and the people in my life first. I love writing, and I love what I feel as I write, but honestly I don't know how many people I touch through writing, I know it changes my life it changes the way I view life. When I am constantly thinking of something to Blog over, something insightful it tends to change the way you view and think about things. But even if I am the only one who is changed by this its worth it. The scriptures say if you bring even one soul unto Christ how great shall be your joy, I believe that applies also to yourself, if you bring things into your life that bring you closer to Christ your joy will still be great.
Today in sacrament meeting one of the bishopric spoke about courage, and the way it changes and influences your life. I feel like that especially hit home to me because I have tried so hard to have courage but sometimes you feel like your swimming against the current in a huge river and you get so tired. He spoke about how it is so easy to the simple things, but it's the hard things that require courage that will make a story worth telling twenty years from now. It so true I mean isn't that why I started this Blog, so someday I would remember these hard times so I could tell my children? I want to have a story worth telling, I want to be leaving a legacy for my children no matter how hard it gets right now. I want to leave a legacy worth telling.
Tight I have a lot of choices right in front of me, and right now most of them hurt, like physically you feel it in your heart. I feel a little bit like Meg Ryans character in You've Got Mail when she decides to close the store, she feels like she lost her mother all over again and nothing can make it okay. And yet she is told closing the store is the brave thing to do, brave for being able to imagine other possibilities in her life. Right now I don't feel brave or courageous, I just feel like I could possibly be loosing something very dear to me, but I know some of these decisions are what will make my story worth telling. Right now I just feel sad and scared, and what I need is courage.
I will definitely Blog about it as I figure it out, but it might be a mess for a while, and you will hear more on my pending decisions.
P.s. I never said 365 days had to be everyday, although that was the goal and idea.

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