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im not running

The last few weeks have gone by so fast that time feels like cool water running through my fingers, there's no way to stop it you simply have to enjoy the feeling and the sensation while it's there. I have sent my baby brother on his mission since I was on here last, I have decided to move and a host of other choices great and small have come to heart with in the last while.
The main one though is the moving thing, I just recently got the feeling that I'd done what I came here to do and that it's time to move on. So i'm moving, I've been in my current ward for two years, two beautiful, hard, sometimes ugly, very miraculous years. I'm not the same person I was when I first moved in this ward, and it's a good thing, I think.
Actually I'm pretty excited too I feel I have done so much these last two years and have learned so much and this ward is all I have known since I moved to salt lake, so I am taking a leap. It's exhilarating really!!! I feel the promise of a new fresh future, and I know that while I was in this ward I took chances, went out on limbs and I have nothing left undone, and unsaid and I have no regrets, I don't feel like I am running away from anything, rather running toward a promise of tomorrow in a fresh start. I am excited the future holds so much for me.
Sometimes you just need to find the courage to let go of your past, to reach forward and embrace you are future, it's as bright as your faith and from my point of view looks breathtaking, promising and beautiful!

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