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A voice for you

Lately there hasn't been a whole lot about my life that has made absolute sense. But the things that do make sense right now I am sure will never change. I know absolutely that I am a beautiful daughter of God made not only purposefully, but made on purpose, even the parts of me that I consider to be ugly. But somethings aren't as ugly or as bad as they first seem, you just have to wait to see the unexpected and sometimes unexplainable beauty.
I know that this life is amazing and beautiful, but it seems to me that only a belief in a being higher than yourself whether it's God, or Buddha, or whatever thing it is people choose to believe in gives you enough insight and hope and depth to see past all the scars and marred moments of life to see beauty,
I know that God loves his children enough to speak to them, not only in the past, but also now he will always find a way to speak to his children, because he loves them.
I also know that the saying "if its not okay than it's not over" is accurate, life isn't always clean cut and organized. Things don't always make sense, but I know that when you continue to try the best you can and when you have given until you can't. Slowly over the hard times you become someone that's not possible without the hard times. As long as you keep trying as far as I have witnessed life does get better. It does not get easier, but it does get better. And as you have hope for the future and look to the horizon for a better tomorrow, life gets more beautiful. You notice the small details that makes life the amazing experience that it has the potential to be.
I know there are moments when you feel overwhelmed lost and sometimes like you have no idea where you belong. And I know there are times when people tell you to be strong and keep smiling, but honestly sometimes you need a moment to mourn, mourn that you've lost sometimes, and that life doesn't always make sense. I find that most of the times I find myself mourning it over a feeling of being lost, or of having lost something. No matter what it is, it is okay to mourn, it's okay to not always be happy, it's part of this human experience.
But never get so lost in mourning that you forget what once made you smile and rejoice. Because no matter what you've lost it should never be so much that it takes away your ability to be happy in the future, no matter how crappy life is there will be something worth rejoicing over in your future, if you don't get so lost in the ruts of hard times. Keep your eyes open for the moments that are meant to be rejoiced over. They are sometimes few and far between, but they are there, don't miss them.
I am starting this blog specifically for my children, so that there is a voice for good, for them. But also I'm starting anyone out there that finds themselves lost wondering where to look for a positive influence. There needs to be a voice for good, and I am going to try me hardest to share what I do have.

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