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This is going to be short, it's been a long day and it's late, my thoughts have been running circles in my head. I've been a mess all weekend running in circles trying to keep myself and everything around me running smoothly. Some times it takes a lot of effort to make life seem so well put together when inside there's such a mess. I'm a stress case I over analyze anything and everything that could possible be over analyzed, I worry that if I don't think of something no one else will either, which is sad. And I stress over every fine tuned little detail, which sometimes drives me crazy.
But what I have realized this weekend is that when you have given and given and you have nothing left to give it probably means that you need to give something to yourself, and usually that thing is either love or forgiveness. Forgive who you have been in the past, and love for who you are now and who you can be in your future. If you can't learn to forgive who you have been, it makes loving who you are and who you can be very difficult.
Just like in a marriage these two concepts will keep you and your spouse United and on the same team, in life these two concepts will keep you together, and willing to fight for yourself, no matter how messy you are inside.

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