I don't think I realized when I made the goal to keep up a blog every day for the next 365 days just how hard it was going to be. Not only am I dot in the habit of writing in a journal, something I have worked to overcome, with no avail. I just didn't realize how hard it is to come up with something that is of value to type about every 24 hours. I think about this blog during my day, everyday trying to come up with something that may be of value to someone who is struggling with life, or needs to feel uplifted, or even something that will be of value to me when I look back on these blog posts.
My big struggle right now is that I don't know what to tell anyone when I don't even know what to tell myself. Life is messy and right now I don't have very many answers to anything.
I like science because it teaches you to be okay with asking questions that may not have answers, well right now I feel like the majority of my life consists of questions that I don't really have answers to. Which is probably really healthy for me, however on the other hand I also like science because it teaches me to search and study out answers from every source I can, it teaches me to look everywhere I can to see if truth can be found, and to be able to use my knowledge to sort out the truth from the false.
Well I have been searching and studying for answers and I have found some, but mostly I have just found a huge lack of patience in myself, patience that I thought I would have learned by now, but somehow haven't.
So my thought for now that I am willing to give is that sometimes you don't find answers, sometimes you're left unknowing. It's hard to accept and it's frustrating to face, but this is reality not fantasy and sometimes it doesn't make sense, because we can not see the big picture. Sometimes we catch glimpses and tiny pieces. But it's like starring at the night sky, if you get out away from everything and give yourself some space you see more and more of the stars that shine. The farther away from the distraction of city lights you get the brighter the stars appear to shine, but it's just not possible with our eyes the way they are to see all of the lights in the heavens there are far to many, and our eyes just can't see them all.
Life is like that, give yourself space and time away from distraction and you will find brightness that sheds light on the subject, but there's no way to see it all. You just have to accept what you can see and let that be good enough till you eyes adjust and you can see more. And like the night sky, sometimes there are clouds and you can't see the light of the stars at all, well those times you just have to realize that the light is still there, just because you can't see it at the moment does not mean that it longer exists. You just have to take a deep breath and wait for it to pass. You can't see it all, and there are even sometimes when you see very little, and it's okay you don't need it all right now, in fact there is no way we could even handle it all right now. Yes sometimes you are left unknowing, but there are also other times, other time when whether or not you see the sky at all you know, with everything that you are you know.
My big struggle right now is that I don't know what to tell anyone when I don't even know what to tell myself. Life is messy and right now I don't have very many answers to anything.
I like science because it teaches you to be okay with asking questions that may not have answers, well right now I feel like the majority of my life consists of questions that I don't really have answers to. Which is probably really healthy for me, however on the other hand I also like science because it teaches me to search and study out answers from every source I can, it teaches me to look everywhere I can to see if truth can be found, and to be able to use my knowledge to sort out the truth from the false.
Well I have been searching and studying for answers and I have found some, but mostly I have just found a huge lack of patience in myself, patience that I thought I would have learned by now, but somehow haven't.
So my thought for now that I am willing to give is that sometimes you don't find answers, sometimes you're left unknowing. It's hard to accept and it's frustrating to face, but this is reality not fantasy and sometimes it doesn't make sense, because we can not see the big picture. Sometimes we catch glimpses and tiny pieces. But it's like starring at the night sky, if you get out away from everything and give yourself some space you see more and more of the stars that shine. The farther away from the distraction of city lights you get the brighter the stars appear to shine, but it's just not possible with our eyes the way they are to see all of the lights in the heavens there are far to many, and our eyes just can't see them all.
Life is like that, give yourself space and time away from distraction and you will find brightness that sheds light on the subject, but there's no way to see it all. You just have to accept what you can see and let that be good enough till you eyes adjust and you can see more. And like the night sky, sometimes there are clouds and you can't see the light of the stars at all, well those times you just have to realize that the light is still there, just because you can't see it at the moment does not mean that it longer exists. You just have to take a deep breath and wait for it to pass. You can't see it all, and there are even sometimes when you see very little, and it's okay you don't need it all right now, in fact there is no way we could even handle it all right now. Yes sometimes you are left unknowing, but there are also other times, other time when whether or not you see the sky at all you know, with everything that you are you know.
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